astaghfirullah hal 'adzim :""""(((

Assalamu'alaykum wr wb...

Ya Allah, astaghfirullah hal 'adzim...
Perhaps the accident last Sunday was the answer of my hurt statement to my friend. He drove a black car from Nglimut to Unissula. I asked about the best option to him whether he drove the car or let me drove it. I asked it for several times. Yet, he ignored it.

When we had arrived at Unissula, I continued my way to get home. Without any bad feeling, I felt sleepy on Fatmawati street but I tried to awake. I had tried to awake for several times. 

Suddenly, the condition was changed totally!!! Unconsciously, I opened my eyes and I saw that I hit cart!! I braked as soon as possible :""" My window was hit by citizens. They asked me why I could do that. I replied that I was sleepy. There was a woman who said that we had to go to RSUD Ketileng at that time because there was a 4 years old girl who I hit. The woman said that she drove my car. The 4 years old girl got blooding at her head. Astaghfirullah hal 'adzim :"""""(
I didn't suppose it would happen to me. Why I could do this :"""""(

The 4 years old child was with her mom. Her mom and her were crying. 
Astaghfirullah hal 'adzim :"""""""(
What I could do at that time?? I was confuse..
The woman who delivered us asked me why and recommended me to finish it thoroughly so this case didn't go to the police, just finished it amicably. Yes, I agreed that. 
Astaghfirullah hal 'adzim :"""""""(

I phoned Ibu, I told her I had hit someone, I was on my way to RSUD Ketileng. I didn't tell anymore. She said that she was on her way to Wonosobo, she had been in the Temanggung. Ibuuuuu :"""" I just could asked in my heart, why Ya Allah, astaghfirullah hal 'adzim :"""" 

The girl was stitched her forehead, 3 in the outer, 6 in the inner. Her tongue was cloven because she bit her tongue to restrain pain. When she was operated by doctor and assistant, the driving woman with her husband told the real chronology. Fortunately the girl didn't spilled by oils because after I hit the girl and her mom, I hit cart, then my car could stop because I braked and there was a car behind the cart. Apparently, I also hit spakbor of a motorcycle. All of them came to me. Before they came, mas Iqbal and mba Asih came to the hospital. I heard that mas Iqbal was still sick. He was seldom sick. That was a first time in this year. 

The doctor said that the forehead was never mind. They had stitched. Yet, the doctor asked us to take the girl to RS Kariadi to stitch her tongue. She asked whether she got vomiting or not. We replied, there was nothing. We didn't know what it meant. 

We took her to RS Kariadi. We were afraid about the health of her forehead. Ibu came to Kariadi. After she met me, she looked for the victim's family. She hugged them. Ya Allah ibuuuu, forgave me pleaseeee, you had to do that for me, astaghfirullah hal 'adzim :"""""""

We wanted to do CT-Scan stitch the girl's tongue. Alhamdulillah at 21.30 she had got stitched of her tongue at RS Kariadi. However, her family didn't want to open the stitch for CT-Scan. I also agreed with their option. That would hurt her. Ibu recommended to victim's family to do CT Scan at RST Bakti Wiratama, Semarang, near Tugu Muda. Apparently, we couldn't have CT Scan there. 

Astaghfirullah hal 'adzim... that was because of meeeeee :"""""" 
Mas Iqbal said that he felt a bad feeling when ayah permitted to get back Pekanbaru, and ibu get back Wonosobo. He also got sick since morning Sunday. He told me that eyang kakung also had a bad feeling about me, he was thingking about me at Sunday morning...
Apparently, I got an accident at Sunday evening. It happened at maghrib :"""""

After picked up the victim and family at Sendang Guwo, we went to the tempat kejadian perkara. We looked for the other victims. We phoned one of them, we asked them when we could finish that case whether at that night 23.00 or other time. He asked for tomorrow at 7 am. Apparently, he was with other victims. I phoned Ibu when I had pemilu, choosing someone for pra LKMM leader, I asked about other victims. She said all of them are nice. All problems was finished. Alhamdulillah they didn't ask for expensive cost.

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Perhaps when most of my friends was slept after getting home from Nglimut, I had to get accident :"""" I had to be in the hospital.. feeling sad, crying, why it could happen, astaghfirullah hal 'adzim :"""""

I hadn't think about my next subject. I had respon PA at 6.45, after that I had open house, then I had SGD at 10 am :"""

I slept, I hadn't studied anything. I awoke at 5.15 am. I just followed all my flow at Monday. In the end of SGD, I told a little about the accident to mba Aur, my SGD mate. I just told it to one person at Monday. After the accident, I'm delivering and picking by someone. He is a security in kompleks kejati. I haven't been brave to drive a car. 

Mas Iqbal's friend came to rumah dinas, she asked about the chronology. Mas Iqbal asked me, where is your friend? I told that I just told the chronology to one of my friend.

On Tueday morning, I told to Ifa about the chronology :""" She also surprised hearing that.
  
Ayah asked me to decrease my night activities, except if there is assignment. However, this day, I was delivered and picked up by Ibu because she had a affair in Kejati, but it was canceled. She has just known about it after she had been in rumah dinas :"""

Yet, alhamdulillah, there is Ibu at home :""")))


It was an expensive and valuable experiences :""""